you?

LOL you just made a wrong assumption about me, dear.

I know i'm still in love with you, but after read your message from you about me..

I laughed so hard and i cried

why the fuck you wrote a message to me like that? it hurts me more and more you know.

Damn!

Well, but thanks.. after i read it, i hate you so damn much!

LOL

f*

I need some place to be alone. Yeah, you know.. like what most drama movies do: sitting and wasting time on the shore, walking alone in the crowd and stop taxi and go anywhere.. and let this head let off some big things that just happened. But now I'm stuck in here, I hate to go to my home and i hate to stay in this city. If only i had a lot of money, I'll rent a boat and go to the middle of ocean and stay in there.. yes, staying.. not swimming not doing anything. 

Isn't it nice? What if there's a storm coming? I don't care, i wouldn't move.

Damn, what the fuck am i doing here? I need to do regression, but i couldn't. 

I need to go out from this hell! Forever, if i could..

Hell, tell me where i MUST go?

..to come in this place it's my very big mistakes

at least i'm trying!

You look great today, dear
your hair, your face, your eyes..
really, I love whatever you wears and whatever your looks..
and now my eyes can't get off you..

I was promised will stop look at you after 3 seconds..
I broke it, i can't stop to see you until 10 seconds..
and after that..


I promise again, i'll not going to miss you..
anymore..

Yes dear, too much loving you will kill myself..

May with A in the end

I tried to forget everything

from the first day our eyes met in front of ISSU room

from the first time i talk to my friends that i want to know more about you

from the first time i ask for a date to see around this city together with you

from the first time i hardly can't believe that i fall in love with you..

Now, I realized that those memories always give me so much pain

You are the star when you left me a big scar, darling

I even hate to have a dinner at 3 o'clock

I even hate to see a picture of a bonquet of flowers

I even hate to come into this city!

You just successfully teared me down..

If only i could get mad at you..

I kept the histories from our chat in MSN

I always smile you know, until i came into 12 january 2009..

I always tried to be strong, but you always haunted me!

Damn, Just please give me the reason..

So i can let you go..

Every night i hear the same song on my iPod

and i wish i could dream of you

Because only dream is the place where i can see you

Just like i knew you in december..

December

Did you hear my heart calling out your name?

My December..