the worse is yet coming

Thanks to Allah SWT for woke me up from this nightmare

I realized that every problems which happen to people is always have its own way to be solved. I know that not every problems can be solved, but i believe that bad or good the result is.. don't let ever yourself down. 

Hah, if only i realized those words from a long time ago. I might not so down like this, but i believe this is for my own good. And yeah, i should have feeling so alive right now. ;D

Umm.. Tomorrow is monday, means new trimester are coming. I'm very excited to know that i must going to campus to study (again). And my hands are ready to write all the things which whatever my lecture's going to write there tomorrow at class. Ohh, i'm like a 5-years-old kid that waiting to begin their days at school! But i remember one thing!

i didn't have a proper clothes to go to class! DAMN! 

I don't know where the hell is my clothes?! Every time i go to melaka, i lose one or two pieces of my clothes (and pants)! stupid me. Well, i should call my mom soon to ask for a money to buy those things. :D

And by the way, i forget to thanks to all of my big family in here and my best friends for all the supports! Sorry if i was soooo damnnnn stupiiid! I thanks God i met you all. You are irreplaceable. hehe I'll keep moving, though i didn't really sure that i could get trough all of these nightmares. But I'm sure, whatever the result is.. I'll keep moving on and you'll never leave me alone. God bless you all. ;)

Thanks for everything,

Angga, Arien, Rara, Cecep, Acy, Cidul, Aripah, Vidi, Acang, Pak Henry, Sorong, Bundo, Unggul, Aci, Reza jek, Jawir, Mahadi, Very, Jepoy, Bang Zaidi, Bang Hasni, Tante Ida, ERU's cyber and melaka staff, and OSC Staff for all the help.. and special thanks to Mom and Dad for all the patiences, prayers, and loves.

I'll not going to waste my time and let my self down anymore. I really thank you all, Allah Bless you all, guys. 

a help from my friend

January 30, 2009

Head Unit of
Exam and Record Unit
Multimedia University
Cyberjaya Campus

I, Achmad Zulfikar Ramadhani, with ID number 1061100417 from Faculty of Information Technology would like to appeal to go back study in MMU while my student status is considered terminated.

The reason for my tardy appeal letter is due to the fact that I was unaware of the termination of my student status. On July 2008, I appealed for a Leave of Absence, which was approved,
and my status remained as active. In the third trimester, Trimester 3 2008/2009, while I logged on to the online system to register for the next trimester, I found out that my status has been changed from Leave of Absence to Terminated.

When I attempted to appeal the reactivation of my student status in MMU Melaka, i was advised to appeal to MMU Cyberjaya instead because all the relevant records needed are in Cyberjaya.

I really hope you can help me and reconsider my status here.

My Pray

I know i was wrong for all this year, i realized i was so damn stupid to live this life.
But, Ya Allah.. I Nadzar for a month if i could get through from all of these problems without having to go home.. I promise..

For whoever read this, please pray for me..
I only got 3 days left to fix all of the mistakes that i had done before..

Please..


why when it comes to an end, i even can't crying?

it doesn't matter for you to hear my sigh, aite?

Hello World..

Well, this is my second posts by the way! lol, but right now i didn't feel so good. ;(
i don't know why, but really.. is it a matters for some peoples when i want to be alone for some times? If it yes, then i don't get it..

Lately, i missed out this holiday. From the word "Holiday", we are all know that it must be a having-fun time or relax or whatever, rite? But me? I did not feel like this holiday i could shout at myself "i'm free now, so i want to make myself have fun and do something that could bring me back to the state of no-sadness-no-job moments!".. still, i got stressed out for some things. I hate it..

I know, in this holiday also could be the moment where people wants to figure out or make clear some mistakes or some problems that they had made. So they could focus more without being afraid of getting busier with the works that they had to do. But, sometimes i always asked to myself why every holidays i never got sometimes to let myself enjoy it? It just the same holy-die like before.. Seeing myself falling deeper and sinking on my own ocean.

To be honest, right now i feel i'm alone. I could't even share all my problems with my friends. I don't know, i thought that it could be better this way. But the truth is, I REALLY WANTED SOMEONE WHO COULD UNDERSTAND ME! Not only hear all my daily complaints or grambles about something or stories that's happened even for a second ago, but would understand what i feel at that time, can calm myself down, can cheers myself up, or yeah.. the point is the one who can take me as i am.

Those dream aren't so high right?

1st not last

hello world

Well, this is my first blog. I just registered it and well, i don't know what I'm going to write in here. It seems like blogging had a lot of funs (after seeing some friends who is a blogger also).

But really, i had no idea for my first post whereas the other next posts. Maybe I'd write a journal of my daily life first, then I'll going to post something that i think.. it's useful. Haha

By the way, i hate the looking of blogger's interface dashboard. It looks.. so damn boring. Why don't they make it more colourful uh? lol it doesn't important, but i think with a nice looking of the dashboard will resulting some peoples to relax while they are writing and giving them some idea. Ah, i don't know.. ;p

Well, i think it's enough for the opening post. I'll going to write here something, soon. ;D

Nite y'all.