at least i'm trying!

You look great today, dear
your hair, your face, your eyes..
really, I love whatever you wears and whatever your looks..
and now my eyes can't get off you..

I was promised will stop look at you after 3 seconds..
I broke it, i can't stop to see you until 10 seconds..
and after that..


I promise again, i'll not going to miss you..
anymore..

Yes dear, too much loving you will kill myself..

May with A in the end

I tried to forget everything

from the first day our eyes met in front of ISSU room

from the first time i talk to my friends that i want to know more about you

from the first time i ask for a date to see around this city together with you

from the first time i hardly can't believe that i fall in love with you..

Now, I realized that those memories always give me so much pain

You are the star when you left me a big scar, darling

I even hate to have a dinner at 3 o'clock

I even hate to see a picture of a bonquet of flowers

I even hate to come into this city!

You just successfully teared me down..

If only i could get mad at you..

I kept the histories from our chat in MSN

I always smile you know, until i came into 12 january 2009..

I always tried to be strong, but you always haunted me!

Damn, Just please give me the reason..

So i can let you go..

Every night i hear the same song on my iPod

and i wish i could dream of you

Because only dream is the place where i can see you

Just like i knew you in december..

December

Did you hear my heart calling out your name?

My December..

the worse is yet coming

Thanks to Allah SWT for woke me up from this nightmare

I realized that every problems which happen to people is always have its own way to be solved. I know that not every problems can be solved, but i believe that bad or good the result is.. don't let ever yourself down. 

Hah, if only i realized those words from a long time ago. I might not so down like this, but i believe this is for my own good. And yeah, i should have feeling so alive right now. ;D

Umm.. Tomorrow is monday, means new trimester are coming. I'm very excited to know that i must going to campus to study (again). And my hands are ready to write all the things which whatever my lecture's going to write there tomorrow at class. Ohh, i'm like a 5-years-old kid that waiting to begin their days at school! But i remember one thing!

i didn't have a proper clothes to go to class! DAMN! 

I don't know where the hell is my clothes?! Every time i go to melaka, i lose one or two pieces of my clothes (and pants)! stupid me. Well, i should call my mom soon to ask for a money to buy those things. :D

And by the way, i forget to thanks to all of my big family in here and my best friends for all the supports! Sorry if i was soooo damnnnn stupiiid! I thanks God i met you all. You are irreplaceable. hehe I'll keep moving, though i didn't really sure that i could get trough all of these nightmares. But I'm sure, whatever the result is.. I'll keep moving on and you'll never leave me alone. God bless you all. ;)

Thanks for everything,

Angga, Arien, Rara, Cecep, Acy, Cidul, Aripah, Vidi, Acang, Pak Henry, Sorong, Bundo, Unggul, Aci, Reza jek, Jawir, Mahadi, Very, Jepoy, Bang Zaidi, Bang Hasni, Tante Ida, ERU's cyber and melaka staff, and OSC Staff for all the help.. and special thanks to Mom and Dad for all the patiences, prayers, and loves.

I'll not going to waste my time and let my self down anymore. I really thank you all, Allah Bless you all, guys.