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my life's already changed guys. haha well, now i'm going back to surabaya. after my appeal letter for terminated got rejected and my visa's expired, so i (honestly, me and my parents) decided to go back to Surabaya until a chance for going back to study in Malaysia is open again. So until then, i will not doing anything and waiting for the result, fyi, i re-appeal for my terminated case.

lately, i feel like i'm going to be the retarded person in this world. why? it's almost 2 weeks and i have nothing to do. huh, it's like i was bitten by zombie and after that transform to a zombie which is always walking around and have no direction until someone shot them in their brain! *sigh*

well, i think that's all. i wont wrote about this topic, really.. there is nothing good from writing about do nothing. ;p

see ya.

May with A in the end

I tried to forget everything

from the first day our eyes met in front of ISSU room

from the first time i talk to my friends that i want to know more about you

from the first time i ask for a date to see around this city together with you

from the first time i hardly can't believe that i fall in love with you..

Now, I realized that those memories always give me so much pain

You are the star when you left me a big scar, darling

I even hate to have a dinner at 3 o'clock

I even hate to see a picture of a bonquet of flowers

I even hate to come into this city!

You just successfully teared me down..

If only i could get mad at you..

I kept the histories from our chat in MSN

I always smile you know, until i came into 12 january 2009..

I always tried to be strong, but you always haunted me!

Damn, Just please give me the reason..

So i can let you go..

Every night i hear the same song on my iPod

and i wish i could dream of you

Because only dream is the place where i can see you

Just like i knew you in december..

December

Did you hear my heart calling out your name?

My December..