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I need some place to be alone. Yeah, you know.. like what most drama movies do: sitting and wasting time on the shore, walking alone in the crowd and stop taxi and go anywhere.. and let this head let off some big things that just happened. But now I'm stuck in here, I hate to go to my home and i hate to stay in this city. If only i had a lot of money, I'll rent a boat and go to the middle of ocean and stay in there.. yes, staying.. not swimming not doing anything. 

Isn't it nice? What if there's a storm coming? I don't care, i wouldn't move.

Damn, what the fuck am i doing here? I need to do regression, but i couldn't. 

I need to go out from this hell! Forever, if i could..

Hell, tell me where i MUST go?

..to come in this place it's my very big mistakes

it doesn't matter for you to hear my sigh, aite?

Hello World..

Well, this is my second posts by the way! lol, but right now i didn't feel so good. ;(
i don't know why, but really.. is it a matters for some peoples when i want to be alone for some times? If it yes, then i don't get it..

Lately, i missed out this holiday. From the word "Holiday", we are all know that it must be a having-fun time or relax or whatever, rite? But me? I did not feel like this holiday i could shout at myself "i'm free now, so i want to make myself have fun and do something that could bring me back to the state of no-sadness-no-job moments!".. still, i got stressed out for some things. I hate it..

I know, in this holiday also could be the moment where people wants to figure out or make clear some mistakes or some problems that they had made. So they could focus more without being afraid of getting busier with the works that they had to do. But, sometimes i always asked to myself why every holidays i never got sometimes to let myself enjoy it? It just the same holy-die like before.. Seeing myself falling deeper and sinking on my own ocean.

To be honest, right now i feel i'm alone. I could't even share all my problems with my friends. I don't know, i thought that it could be better this way. But the truth is, I REALLY WANTED SOMEONE WHO COULD UNDERSTAND ME! Not only hear all my daily complaints or grambles about something or stories that's happened even for a second ago, but would understand what i feel at that time, can calm myself down, can cheers myself up, or yeah.. the point is the one who can take me as i am.

Those dream aren't so high right?

1st not last

hello world

Well, this is my first blog. I just registered it and well, i don't know what I'm going to write in here. It seems like blogging had a lot of funs (after seeing some friends who is a blogger also).

But really, i had no idea for my first post whereas the other next posts. Maybe I'd write a journal of my daily life first, then I'll going to post something that i think.. it's useful. Haha

By the way, i hate the looking of blogger's interface dashboard. It looks.. so damn boring. Why don't they make it more colourful uh? lol it doesn't important, but i think with a nice looking of the dashboard will resulting some peoples to relax while they are writing and giving them some idea. Ah, i don't know.. ;p

Well, i think it's enough for the opening post. I'll going to write here something, soon. ;D

Nite y'all.