i erased all the logs, i deleted all the pictures
i don't want to miss anything..
i don't want to remember everything..

i have my own life now
and so are you.

so, goodbye (again)
and i'll stop writing..

so long, my friends

it cures me when i'm down

so what happen?
am i too tired to make some things going right or it just you who don't try to understand me?
my life's not suck, but for you it's true.

well, let's forget it then.
finally i'm going to go university again! well, not in a high reputation government university though (but, hey who cares?), just a new university which built by a very well-known entrepreneur, Ir. Ciputra, that named University Ciputra.

you may not believe it, but UC even didn't have any graduated students yet! but their programs and the mission for their students is different and.. great. yeah, great..
but back again, it depend on our willingness to make a step forward.. but still, this university is great! haha (idk what to say.. :P)

so from now on, i should saying goodbye to our friends in Malaysia that i always love :). It's hard to know it, really.. though 2 years is not so a long time for us to know each other, but for me to some peoples there who i really loves, it's very hard for me to left it behind.

but, thanks for everything anyway. so goodbye for some friends who i think we'll never meet again (or maybe a very long goodbye), and see you again for some friends who live near with my city!

so i'll keep it simple, stupid!

...and i even have no reason to get angry to you

cool~

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Commitment
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Losing Someone
Being Alone
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

thanks to arienaa~

sby

my life's already changed guys. haha well, now i'm going back to surabaya. after my appeal letter for terminated got rejected and my visa's expired, so i (honestly, me and my parents) decided to go back to Surabaya until a chance for going back to study in Malaysia is open again. So until then, i will not doing anything and waiting for the result, fyi, i re-appeal for my terminated case.

lately, i feel like i'm going to be the retarded person in this world. why? it's almost 2 weeks and i have nothing to do. huh, it's like i was bitten by zombie and after that transform to a zombie which is always walking around and have no direction until someone shot them in their brain! *sigh*

well, i think that's all. i wont wrote about this topic, really.. there is nothing good from writing about do nothing. ;p

see ya.

James Wendt - Love is Glowing

think i'm bigger than i used to be
oh, love is glowing up
there's another world to know out there
oh, love is glowing up

i was afraid to say "hello"
'cause i was just as scared to say "goodbye"

found and lost so many dreams
and some i still believe in others
i let walk away
times i laughed and felt so free
and times i felt so little
the sudden highs and misery,
that is what you gave me

life is bigger than it used to be
oh, love is glowing up
you know, there's another world to see out there
oh, love is glowing up

because of you i can believe
we gave each other what we truly need
i have you and you have him and
he has her and really
that's the way that it should be

just like clovers in the field
mix with the weeds and flowers
the pain and peace collectively

found and lost so many dreams then
some we still believe in
others we let walk away

roads will swallow and divide us
just think of each other
together, moving separately
alone is just a feeling

love is glowing up
love is glowing up
love is glowing up..

sorry if you found some mistakes, because i didn't found this lyrics in Google, so i attempted to write it. :D (and because i saw someone in YouTube is searching for this lyrics too. :D)

i'm death! (ohh.. drama again)

it's been a while uh.
well, i really want to post some of the things that happened here. But, i got a problem with "how to write a stories?" (and in English too, duh).
besides, nothing special is happened in this last 2 weeks. Well, my life's gone flat. Nothing happen, just went to my friend's house, have a dinner, playing guitar, facebook, browsing or surfing or whatever and the point is i'm wasted in here! and you guys should know that now i even can talk "yeahh, i hate to go to sleep!" lol

By the way, what you guys usually do when you had nothing to do in your life for a month?
will you buying sleeping pills and swallow it and after that you sleep until in the end of the month?
or will you go to some where nice, so you could do refreshing or do whatever you wants there?
or will you just put your ass in front of you computer and playing facebook until you grow older??
hahahaha, i choose the last one. looks nice uh. LOL

ah, i think that's all. i have to go to sleep right now.
i promise to deli (my childhood friend) that we'll have a chat in the morning!-guys, IT"S MORNING ALREADY!-
well.. good morning then.

see ya